Now she's left cleaning up the mess he made.

babybelcheese @ 2005-02-22T17:32:00

2005-02-23T01:35:27Z

all i want is for you to be honest with me. im not here to judge, i just wanna know all of you. apparently that itself is even far too much to ask...

babybelcheese @ 2005-02-16T20:13:00

2005-02-17T04:14:05Z

i absolutely adore you.

♥

babybelcheese @ 2005-02-09T10:24:00

2005-02-09T18:27:43Z

stop dragging me back to that place i'm trying to run away from... it's all so intentional.

babybelcheese @ 2004-11-15T20:46:00

2004-11-16T04:48:06Z

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don't have cable, so I rarely watch TV.
03. I love olives, but only on pizza.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I don't get how to play video games.
08. I've never tried marijuana.
09. I've watched porn movies.
10. I have kissed two girls at once.
11. I don't think I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship .
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I've been told I have a nice butt.
19. I don't own a knife/razor to carry anywhere.
20. I'm really, really smart. (Sometimes...)
21. I've never broken someone else's bones.
22. I have no secrets that I am ashamed to reveal.
23. I love rain.
24. I'm paranoid at times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
26. I need money right now.
27. I love sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast.
29. I brush my teeth in the morning.
30. I have fairly short hair .
31. I am not old enough to gamble.
32. I am an only child, but I have four siblings. Go figure.
33. I was born in Texas.
34. I shave my legs.
35. I wish I had a twin.
37. I only have Caller I.D. on my cell phone.
38. I like the way that I look. (Sometimes...)
39. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
40. I don't know how to do cornrows and think they are lame.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears was pretty, but now is hideous.
45. I haven't cheated on a significant other.
46. I have no hidden talents.
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48. I don't have many friends, but the ones that I do have, I adore.
49. I was in a relationship for at least a year.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants, but only when at home.
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I have never worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my LJ.
58. I hate very few people.
59. I only dance at shows, or while drunk.
60. I don't care whether or not Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I rarely watch MTV.
65. I have thrown up drunk in the past 6 months.
67. I have been in a real relationship before.
68. I've rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone--but I am already dating them.
70. I definitely know what I want to do for the rest of my life.
71. I don't want to have children in the future.
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I've never had the cops called on me before.
74. I bite my nails sometimes.
75. I am definitely not a member of the Tom Green fan club.
76. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have never dated someone at least 10 years older or younger, or even had a crush on somebody that old/young.
79. I plan on laughing at those who see Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am rarely shy around anybody.
81. I'm online when I am at my house.
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
83. I have tried alcohol before.
84. I have had a crush on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I rent the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
88. I hate anything country.
89. I love my best friends.
90. I think that Pizza My Heart has the best pizza.
91. I watch Mexican soap operas whenever I can.
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist. (Sometimes...)
93. I have never had a career .
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I don't even know what Slick Rick's "Children's Story" is.
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. 9
98. I have never dated any friend's ex.
99. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I wish I could go scuba diving
101. Had a crush on somebody you've never met.
102. kissed someone you knew you shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I used to love math before I quit it.
105. I'm procrastinating something right now.
106. I owe the library $80 and therefore NEVER use my card.
107. I am in love.
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I don't get the Lord of the Rings craze.
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show "Lost".
111. I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville. And I think that tekken is the rockingest game in rockville. ....... ...What?
112. There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder.
113. Sometimes I don't like food.
114. I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about.
115. I desperately want people to respect me but it rarely happens.
116. I am rarely able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it.
117. I am straight, but kiss girls while drunk.
118. I think Scottish and British accents are very attractive.
119. I could spend an entire day on the computer with the occasional potty & food breaks.
120. I think George W. Bush is not only a horrible president, but really annoying as well.
121. I am usually happy with my life and content in this skin.
122. I have serious problems downloading music from bands that need the money.
123. I adore scarves.
124. I'm a total lit nerd.
125. I used to have a severe coffee addiction
126. I like classical music.
127. LiveStrong bracelets have become so passe.
128. There are times when I feel completely lost or helpless.
129. I usually like where I am right now.
130. I eat cookies for breakfast.
131. I am building my own darkroom.
132. I love fireplaces on rainy days.
133. I have a sore throat right now.

babybelcheese @ 2004-10-13T12:48:00

2004-10-13T19:53:58Z

I wanted freedom but I'm restricted.

2004-07-31T04:44:39Z

haha well I should be in Pasa Robles right now, enjoying fine music with my friends, but...well.

work, good. we got this new guy, soooo adorable. he already knows a lot so its all good. got paid.. i only work three days next week during school.. haha yesterday i walked into work, got dressed, walked over to the front to sign my time card, and noticed everyone staring at me like I was insane, then they all told me that i didnt even work..? nice chrystal, real nice. lol

was gonna go to battle of the bands over in "Bingville" but i'm too tired and i gots to get up early again tomorrow. plus i didn't really like, like 3/4 of the bands playing so yeah.

i have no life...

um tomorrow, work, hopefully going to see the village before. i have to cash my check and i think target is calling my name, so i mos def have to stop by there sometime.

alright then..

there's a butt-load of gangs here...

2004-07-26T03:20:01Z

um today...

woke up at 4:45am because we (nina and myself) wanted to go with my family to the lake. It was fun. Did a little tubing...tanning..burning.. and I also tried to ski?? yeah that didn't go to well. Got some bruises and cuts. but it was fun nonetheless. im really tired because of it but i'm unable to go to bed right now.

work tomorrow. sounds odd but i really like working.. except when they schedule me to work the sunday before school til 9. i'm also working friday which kind of sucks because neen, adam, adam, and i were supposed to go to the blink concert at the mid-state fair. i could have someone work for me but im extremely stingy and want the hours which = money, so.. whatevr. not a problem..

school is in a week. i'm so excited. can't wait to get situated in my new classes with my new materials and with new teachers and so on.

chris tried to get me to wear the giant pizza costume yesterday.. um no thanks? its nasty, has probably never been washed, and is really embarrassing just to wear on fremont for like a half hour so really, i'll pass.

i really, really like the maroon 5 cd. its awesome and i dont get the urge to skip any tracks like i do with most of the new cds i buy.

im done and im tired. goodbye

babybelcheese @ 2004-07-22T21:03:00

2004-07-23T04:06:09Z

You're doin it again..

babybelcheese @ 2004-07-12T23:41:00

2004-07-13T06:48:02Z

What the hell is wrong with you?? Don't you get it, your life is a joke. Do you not see?! You're running your ass straight into the ground.. And I truly feel sorry for you. This is not meant to be mean or cruel this is simply the facts, and it justs shows that I care...

babybelcheese @ 2004-07-05T16:16:00

2004-07-05T23:32:31Z

hmm, i have no life. it's 4 and i have not left my room all day. and this wont be the first day like this. all my friends lives are obviously far to busy for my intervention. i dont care. i figure i won't die if i have to spend the rest of my summer by myself..

i shouldn't own a phone. the calls i make dont get answered, and the ones i recieve are... non-existent? i dont even get calls just to ask me how ive been or what im doing anymore. i miss those. they were nice.

i want to talk to you. i just want to know how you are, hwat youve been doing. i called you and you didnt answer, whats that about?

I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream. I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean. I don't know how I got this way, I know it's not alright.

babybelcheese @ 2004-06-27T22:36:00

2004-06-28T05:52:52Z

summer, ive decided, will probably be the end of me.

no work today. it was pretty chill..
slept half the day..went to the mall with neen and chels, then atia picked us up and went to her house, made brief convo...marlee came...went to papa murphys (not to work) picked up sabrina, took her home...went to marlees ate pizza...went home..and yeah.

~~tomorrow should be fun...boardwalk, hell yeah..~~

some people are oh so weird.

chris is a douche. hes a piece of shit pussy whipped bitch with no respect for his "friends"...he should be shot.

I hella wanna meet/marry mike d. hes the shit for real. i'd hit that bitch any day..

i am currently still not getting paid..

i'm tired,
later

Hey hey hey

2004-06-19T17:51:38Z

Um yeah hey long time no update? Short entry today but ya know.. Yeah so anyways summer's goin good. LOts of things to do which is always better than staying at home by yourself.

I got a job finally; at Papa Murphys. It's cool too because I get to work with Marlee and shit. My boss is so unorganized its insane. And somehow he can always find a way to blame his insanity on you..

Chelsea's here...

yeah I'm done, I can't do it anymore, it's a waste of my time, it sucks, and I hate hurting myself..

I went home yesterday for the first time in like 5 days because I don't really like staying there, so I sleep elsewhere?? aka The Payne Casa..

Um yeah thats aboust it,

Later.

babybelcheese @ 2004-04-18T14:36:00

2004-04-18T21:37:23Z

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. ~~Difficult to fathom.~~ Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. ~~Secretive.~~ Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. ~~Less talkative but amiable.~~ Brave and generous. ~~Patient.~~ Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. ~~Loves to be alone.~~Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. ~~Homely.~~ Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

Rules
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the four that best apply to you.
4. Put all twelve months under a cut.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.Very stubborn and money cautious

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

babybelcheese @ 2004-04-04T19:44:00

2004-04-05T03:09:51Z

babybelcheese @ 2004-03-22T11:52:00

2004-03-22T19:52:39Z

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What is your name?:	Chrystal
Are you named after anyone?:	A lady off this old TV show "Wings"
What's your screename?:	xtakexmexawyx
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	Hayden sounds alright
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	i dunno
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	Pronouncing it isn't that tough, but it often gets mispelled
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	drop it no, change it maybe.
Basics
Your gender::	female
Straight/Gay/Bi::	straight
Single?:	yes
If not, do you want to be?:
Birthdate::	November 1, 1988
Your age::	15
Age you act::	15, on rare occasion maybe 6 or7
Age you wish you were::	18, 21, or 23
Your height::	5' 3"
Eye color::	brown
Happy with it?:	yeah
Hair color::	brownish-reddish
Happy with it?:	not really
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	righty baby!
Your living arrangement::	my house
Your family::	Madre, Padre, and my sis
Have any pets?:	yes, 2 dogs and 2 birds
Whats your job?:	Office Assistant
Piercings?:	7, all on my ears
Tattoos?:	nope
Obsessions?:	Shopping, Johnny Depp
Addictions?:	internet, diet coke with lemon, shopping
Do you speak another language?:	haha no and you'd think i would after being in italian for two years eh?
Have a favorite quote?:	"What are you doin'??"- Dr.Phil
Do you have a webpage?:	nope
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	sometimes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	yeah
Do you have any secrets?:	yeah
Do you hate yourself?:	sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?:	it's alright
Do you have any bad habits?:	biting my nails and, the insides of my mouth
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	That I'm funny
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	i dunno
What's your biggest fear?:	dying alone
Can you sing?:	not well
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	no
Are you a loner?:	not really
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	family, friends, my health
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	probably
Are you a daredevil?:	not really
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	a lot of things
Are you passive or agressive?:	agressive
Do you have a journal?:	yeah
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	I can't think of any
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	The way people perceive me
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	some what
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	yeah
Do you think life has been good so far?:	yeah
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	That no matter how hard I think I may have it, there's always someone else who is more worse off then I am.
What do you like the most about your body?:	my eyes
And least?:	most things
Do you think you are good looking?:	not really
Are you confident?:	some what
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	I haven't come across one yet
Are you perceived wrongly?:	sometimes
Do You...
Smoke?:	no
Do drugs?:	no
Read the newspaper?:	sometimes
Pray?:	not really
Go to church?:	no
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	sure
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	lol yeah
Take walks in the rain?:	yeah
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	no
Drive?:	not legally anyway
Like to drive fast?:	no I'm hella paranoid
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	eh not really
Hurt yourself?:	yes
Been out of the country?:	nope
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	Chipotle
Been in love?:	maybe
Done drugs?:	nope
Gone skinny dipping?:	no
Had a medical emergency?:	yes
Had surgery?:	no
Ran away from home?:	when I was little but it was only to my neighbors house
Played strip poker?:	no
Gotten beaten up?:	no
Beaten someone up?:	yeah
Been picked on?:	yeah
Been on stage?:	yeah
Slept outdoors?:	camping..
Thought about suicide?:	yeah
Pulled an all nighter?:	yeah
If yes, what is your record?:	a day and a half
Gone one day without food?:	yes
Talked on the phone all night?:	yeah
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	yeah
Slept all day?:	who hasn't?
Killed someone?:	nooo
Made out with a stranger?:	no
Had sex with a stranger?:	yes, every friday night
Thought you're going crazy?:	oohh yeeah
Kissed the same sex?:	not sexually
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	no
Been betrayed?:	yeah
Had a dream that came true?:	not really
Broken the law?:	yeah
Met a famous person?:	no
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	: ( yeah when i was little, my hamster. I accidently held him a little too tight...
On purpose?:	no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	yeah
Stolen anything?:	yeah
Been on radio/tv?:	TV, yes. Radio, no.
Been in a mosh-pit?:	yeah
Had a nervous breakdown?:	ohh yeah
Bungee jumped?:	no
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	yeah
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	no
Miracles?:	sometimes
Astrology?:	no
Magic?:	no
God?:	I dunno
Satan?:	I dunno
Santa?:	no
Ghosts?:	not really
Luck?:	not really
Love at first sight?:	sure
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	yeah
Witches?:	no
Easter bunny?:	no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	sometimes
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	no
Do you wish on stars?:	I have
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	something like that
Do you think God has a gender?:	well people usually refer to "him" as male so..
Do you believe in organized religion?:	yeah
Where do you think we go when we die?:	I don't
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	Not that I know of
Who is your best friend?:	I have a few
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	Nina
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	I dunno
Your favourite inside joke?:	I dunno
Thing you're picked on most about?:	I dunno
Who's your longest known friend?:	Marlee, 1st grade baby!
Newest?:	Bean
Shyest?:	Casey
Funniest?:	Jordan or Nina
Sweetest?:	Chris can be quite a sweetie when he wants to be
Closest?:	Well literally that would be Marlee.( 4 houses down )
Weirdest?:	Chelsea
Smartest?:	Marlee, Jordan, or Theresa
Ditziest?:	Sam takes the cake on that one!!
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	Chelsea
Last person you talked to online?:	Kayti..?
Who do you talk to most online?:	Marlee or Jordan
Who are you on the phone with most?:	Neen Or Jordan
Who do you trust most?:	Casey maybe
Who listens to your problems?:	Nina
Who do you fight most with?:	Jordan
Who's the nicest?:	Nina
Who's the most outgoing?:	Marlee
Who's the best singer?:	I dunno
Who's on your shit-list?:	only a few people
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	no..
Who's your second family?:	The Payne's
Do you always feel understood?:	yeah
Who's the loudest friend?:	Sam!!
Do you trust others easily?:	yeeah..
Who's house were you last at?:	Jordan's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	Jordan
Do your friends know you?:	yeah
Friend that lives farthest away::	Chelsea
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	no
What do you find romantic?:	different things
Turn-on?:	great sense of humor, caring, good listener
Turn-off?:	cockiness, rudeness
First kiss?:	I think it was back in the 3rd or 4th grade, he just kind of grabbed my face...lol
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	bad
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	yeeeah
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	not really
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	not really
What is best about the opposite sex?:	a lot of things
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	I dunno
What's the last present someone gave you?:	Nina just gave me half of my christmas present like 3 days ago!!lol
Are you in love?:	hmm..
Do you consider your significant other hot?:
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	wtf?
You wanted to kill?:	Budris
That you laughed at?:	Jordan
That laughed at you?:	Nina
That turned you on?:	I dunno
You went shopping with?:	Nina
That broke your heart?:	..
To disappoint you?:	No one really
To ask you out?:
To make you cry?:	I can't think of one..
To brighten up your day?:	No one yet
That you thought about?:	Chelsea
You saw a movie with?:	Neen and Kc
You talked to on the phone?:	Jordan
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	Kayti..?
You saw?:	My dad
You lost?:	no one
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	probably
Will it be with your significant other?:	no
Or some random person?:	no
What are you wearing right now?:	Black sweats and a white t-shirt
Body part you're touching right now::	my foot
What are you worried about right now?:	nothing really
What book are you reading?:	I'm not reading anything at the moment
What's on your mousepad?:	A little pink fairy sitting in pink clouds
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	achy, content, excited, okay, kind of cold
Are you bored?:	and the other reason I'm filling thisout would be..??
Are you tired?:	not really
Are you talking to anyone online?:	no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	no
Are you lonely or content?:	both
Are you listening to music?:	no

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AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!

2004-03-20T00:50:57Z

FUCKING SLUT!!! BUDRIS YOU WHORE! A B??? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!? STUPID ASS BITCH, YOU'RE GOING DOWN!

Another Monday, not wasted.

2004-03-16T17:26:57Z

I’m at Marlees right now. Her and Nina are still asleep and I'm, of course, up at the butt crack of dawn, so yeah.
Yesterday,..way fun!! I woke up thinking I had to work but turns out I didn't, so that’s good. Anyway I was really bored, as usual, and decided to take a little walk to Marlees house. She said we should go to Macys and shop for prom... (I dunno whats going on but I kinda, sort of don't wanna go, but all my friends are going so guess what I'll probably end up doing...) but we didn't end up going right then. Instead we begged Paul to come with Marlee, Casey, and I to the beach. After many "No I have to Vacuum and tape the House of Mouse"s we finally got him to accept our invitation. After Casey came by and we all hopped in her car and drove to the beach. When we got there we went straight for the water. It was sooo cold, but after a while you get used to the needle-like pain all over your body and start to go numb, so it's all good. lol We did a lot of body boarding because we're ghetto like that and don't have boogie boards. I guess Marlee got a stroke of genius and decided that we should all go get boogie boards. So we go to the nearest store, K-mart, soaking wet might I add, looking for boogie boards. So we got some, and then went to McDonalds, because us fat children need that greasy fatty-ass food.

We went back to the beach and swam a little more with the boards. We also felt like being immature and wrecking some lady’s mote that she built with her children because she was being mean to Paul, telling him that he shouldn't act like a three year old to her three year old after her boy went up to Paul calling him brother?? Paul just kindly said "Hey little boy I'm not your brother, please do not call me brother." And she went off on him, telling her little boy to walked the opposite way of Paul when needing to walk somewhere. Single-forty-five-year-old-mother-of-two-whose-husband-is-cheating-on-you-with-a-17-year-old, bitch. haha...We had fun.

Then I guess on their way back to Marlees after they dropped me off, poor Casey hit a car! Shit that sucks. Its just a little dent, I dunno why her parents flipped a bitch, but anyway. Hope your not in too much trouble Katherine my dear.

Then later Marlee, Nina and I went to Macys. Yeah that was a big waste of time for me considering I hate trying on clothes and that’s all we did. So we left Macys and went to the Beacon in Sand City, to go in the place where you wash your car to see the FOAM BRITE!! Nina took pictures.lol Then we went to Marlees and hung out.

Surprisingly my Monday wasn't boring

babybelcheese @ 2004-03-01T11:20:00

2004-03-01T19:28:41Z

My soul it screams for you
can you not here it
my arms reach out for you
why cant you take them
my heart burns only for you
can you extinguish it
i love only to be loved by you
why cant you love me too
i long only to be held and cared for
why cant it be
am i to die alone and bitter
what the hell is wrong with me
my face is blackened and my eyes are sewn shut
with fear and sorrow
i no longer wish to love anything
just cut the heart right out of me

I no longer wish to love anything, just cut the heart right out of me

2004-03-01T05:21:56Z

So I just got back from Neens. We spent the entire weekend sleeping and eating, sad I know but what can I say?! Let me just put this simply; House of the Dead, Thirteen and one crazy little boy named Cliff...haha Anyways yeah this weekend was cool I guess. Friday I went to see The Passion with my aunt. And let me tell you it was one of the most depressing/appalling/and astonishing things I've seen. I was practically crying throughout the entire movie. Plus I never really put much thought into what happened with Jesus' crucifixion. It got me thinking afterward though, like why? ya know? Anyways yeah.. Then later that night Nina came over and spent the night. We watched School of Rock. It was way funny. I love Jack Black! Then Saturday my mom wanted to go shopping at Macys, and asked if we wanted to go. I did but Nina wasn't quite ready seeing how she was still in bed! So I went and left her at my house. I got this really cute shiny black jacket. I love it! Marlee came over later and saw my jacket and wanted it too. So we all went back to Macys and she bought the same jacket. But she gonna modify hers I guess so they can be different, so thats cool. I've decided I want to completely re-do my room this summer. I wanna paint and shit. I'm thinkin red..maybe. I dunno but I just know it has to change. I’m bored with it. Um yeah..Im failing out of high school, I’m never getting into college, and life couldn’t be better!! haha I'm crazy. I need sleep. Yeah that’s a good idea, See ya later

Yeah fuck you, you fucking piece of shit. i hate you.

2004-02-14T07:41:47Z

So anyways I just got back from Chippers. There was this "hardcore" show or whatever and it was awesome! I've come too actually like the loud noise and the screaming. There were like six bands I think and they were all pretty good, especially, A Burning Water! My new found love is the lead singer of the band. He’s soooo cute! He kept making eye contact with me throughout all of their songs and yeah. He like practically sang an entire song to me, which was exciting! Then after his band was done playing, I was forced to go talk to him because he kept staring but I didn’t. It was intimidating because he was so beautiful. lol He actually came to me and said something but all I could do was babble some shit ass reply back with a dumbass smile on my face. Err! I’m such a retard. Whatever. What the hell else is new?!
So anyways, Valentines Day is tomorrow! It should be fun, I guess. I don’t know what I’m going to do yet, but I’m not worried. I rented Le Divorce, so I think I might just watch that.
Yeah I’m tired...

babybelcheese @ 2004-02-07T11:25:00

2004-02-07T19:27:09Z

Hold on to me, love
You know I can't stay long,
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid,
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light - it ends here tonight

I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears!

Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light - it ends here tonight

Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there

Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me, calling me as you fade to black

babybelcheese @ 2004-02-07T11:06:00

2004-02-07T19:06:14Z

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A:	Indie Elitist
Your Favorite Band/Song	Evanescence - My Immortal
You Like To Read:	Biographies/Autobiographies
You Firmly Believe In:	Sex at first sight
Everyone Thinks You Are:	OMG WAY HOTT LOLZ
You Were Conceived:	Backstage at a Queen concert
You Will Marry:	A respectable person

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babybelcheese @ 2004-01-10T16:48:00

2004-01-11T00:49:19Z

Your rockstar husband by girl_rotten
Username
Husband	Davey Havok of AFI
Wedding Day	May 18, 2029
Number of Kids	9

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Uh oh sorry Murm! lol

I'd grieve the special dirty things that we used to talk about...

2003-12-31T06:14:34Z

Yeah so today was cool I guess. I stayed home most of the day which is always nice in a really lonely and depressing kind of way, if that makes any sense. Oh well. Anyway, but yeah I finally got in the shower about 4 and went to get a pedicure. That was nice, and I needed it. I love having me-time every once in a while. It keeps me from going insane. Afterwards I came home to get ready to go out with Neen and Chels. We were supposed to meet downtown at 5, they didn’t come until 6.... Yeah I’ve kind of developed this system, you see you tell them to meet you at least an hour before you actually leave the house because they'll get there an hour later than you told them, so you see we're both there at the same time, if I’m lucky. So yeah we met up at Starbucks and then walked through Farmers Market. Then we met up with Sasha at Bay Books, which was cool because we hadn’t seen her in a while.
Oh my god! I saw my first car chase today! It sounds sad but it was such a rush because it was right in front of us. We saw the fuzz with their lights on following this car. The guy in the driver seat saw the lights and sped around the curb across from us, it was kind of scary but still cool. I thought it was Marlee and Adam at first! I mean it was her car and the guy in the front seat looked like him, and so I thought that she had just let him drive or something. But then I came to my senses and realized that she wouldn’t be that dumb and speed away from a cop like that. Then about 10 min later we walked by and stood in the crowd of people that watched the cops as they caught the people and put them in the police car. After all the excitement we went to Walgreens and did what we do best, sit in the middle of the isle and read magazines. Overall it was really fun, I love my friends.
I can't wait until tomorrow night. I’m going to First Night. It'll be the first year I'll have spent New Years with my friends. It should be fun, I hope. Whatever. I’m tired.

babybelcheese @ 2003-12-29T10:56:00

2003-12-29T18:56:47Z

You are Cinnamon.
You are fiery and passionate. You pour your heart
into everything you do, and you don't stop when
you set your mind to something. You let people
know exactly what's on your mind. However,
your friends are sometimes put off by your
intense drive and fiery personality.
Most Compatible With: Spearmint

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